Dovid, how’s Australia?
Have a weird dream the other night in which the two of us were on the ocean liner owned by aage, and he was offering us the largest cabin there, in exchange for some unspecified services on our part, and we were resisting his entreaties, at which point a russian fsb (former kgb) agent materialized, in the shape of an extremely fetching female, who instantly proceeded to fall madly in love with me and chasing me all through the ship’s passageways, nooks and crannies… and there were some poisonous snakes and kittens with poisonous fangs involved, thrown into the mix and scattered all over the floor in the passageways of my retreat; and the thing was, however, that the snake’s venom could only be neutralized by the antidote contained in the poisonous kittens venom, and at one point I made a mistake of killing the kittens in my cabin first, whereupon i was bitten by the snake and woke up in cold sweat.
i hear you, and you know i’m not going to gift lsi site to anyone unworthy, or anyone period, least of all milda. but something needs to be done, and i keep thinking and trying. i also do believe that infiltrating (as it were) the place from within can be more efficient than lobbing grenades at its perimeter from the outside; the issue is not entirely that clearcut in the minds even of our friends in lithuania (more on that some other time, but check out, as an example, judita g’s “sharing” on fb the mealymouthed bromides poured onto the virtual pages of vilnews‘ latest issue by mark zingeris; and the ever eagle-minded mr wb’s wholehearted excitement over said text).
in STRICT CONFIDENCE: a grant for sls from the us embassy was applied for, a few months ago, for a significant sum, and jake, who’s friends with the consul, was assured it was a shoo-in; but then somehow suddenly it became less of a shoo-in, because, as it was communicated in strict confidence, they cannot fund any political activities, and anything involving ez in lithuania may fall into that category. NOw of course i’m full of determination to bring him, because — fuck that shite, to put it in academic terms; fucking assholes; it’s just now purely a matter of our being able to afford it, as we literally right now are trying to reach the level of breaking even and have already cut one writer as his workshop only has 4 people. But it is a matter to think of — that no one signed up for JL from “non-literary” crowd, even despite the fact that ez did try to spread the word… Dovid, it is important sometimes to be able to stop and reassess and rethink and regroup, and then move in again, from a slightly different angle. I simply must do this, as sls is an organization i created and it now involves many more people than just me.
But lithuania makes no sense for me whatsoever without the JL. So i’ll keep at it.
Keep thinking. Keep trying. You know that in me you have someone who believes wholeheartedly in what you do.
Amazing photos of your father.
Much love to you,